Hi everybody. Sorry in advance for the long post. I don't know how many of you will recognize me. I know some of you will. I decided to visit SC for the first time in about 5 years, found this thread and figured I'd say a few words.
I still think about this site from time to time, usually when reminiscing bittersweetly about my teenage years, as those of us aging deeper into our twenties often do. It will always be special to me. For me, it's a relic of a simpler and beautiful time in my life. I didn't feel that way when I posted here, but I do now.
I made my first account in 2005 as a 14 year-old kid who loved Pokemon and wanted some Action Replay codes to get the legendary Pokemon that Nintendo unjustly withholds from its loyal customers who are unable or unwilling to drive across the country and attend special events. Making my first post took more courage than it probably should have; I had low self-esteem and high social anxiety. The people here welcomed me so warmly that I became comfortable enough to get out of my shell. I started posting in the forums for some of the other games I liked. One of those forums was completely dead apart from me and one other guy, the only mod, but we loved each other's company and the game so much that we filled it with all kinds of threads pages and pages full of dialogue between just the two of us. Eventually, another mod position opened up, and I got it. I was probably the only applicant.
Not too long after, I started getting mod spots for Pokemon games, which were some of the most popular on the boards. I started posting on the FF&RP boards and eventually got a position there, which was a big deal for me. I was so excited about my accomplishments that I started breaking out of my shell in other ways in real life. One day, Rich offered new Super Mod positions - there were only three back then - to a small list of members, and I was one of them. I accepted and was probably one of the better-known members of the forums for a short time. It was a great experience.
As my personal life became more serious, I stopped coming around as often and eventually left the site altogether just before my high school graduation. Regrettably, I was caught up in the high school mentality at the time and thought it would be a badass thing to do to speak out against some of the members around at the time and go out like an Internet martyr. My leaving post got deleted, and I unfortunately don't remember who many of those people were, but I apologize to all of them.
As a (kinda) mature and accomplished adult, I now believe that this site subtly changed my life in a big way. Looking back, I don't know if I ever would have found the confidence to accomplish what I have anywhere else. It was a place where I actually felt that I shared something in common with someone. It was a place where my anonymity gave me the confidence to show parts of my personality that I was too afraid of being judged for to let out in the real world. Once I realized that there might be something to like about those sides of me, I lost some of that fear. I loved creative writing and comedy, but I wouldn't have dared to show that to anyone offline. Here, I got a chance to dive right into them. The more friends I made on this site, the more confident and likable I felt in real life, and the more the things I disliked about myself started to disappear. Over the few years I spent on SC, I turned myself inside-out in my personal life. The person I am today is more pleasing to me than the person I dreamed of being when I first came here. I will always credit SuperCheats and any and every one of the friends I made here for a big part of that.
Before writing this post, I took some time to read a few of the older posts I made. Some of them made me laugh; others made me cringe. All of them made me smile. I also smiled reading through this thread and finding some familiar faces. I still remember TestVirus101, Tank (poke.addicted), steelersrock01 and, of course, Justin (V-Gamer). Nice to see you all again.
To Justin specifically: I'm glad I saw your name among the posters in this thread and that you posted recently. You were one of my best friends here. There's something about old friendships that stays the same even when everything else seems to change. Congratulations on the fatherhood! Seeing your first child will easily be one of the best moments in your life. Marrying the right person seems to be the only thing that can come close. I hope you're ready for it, I hope you love the girl, I hope you get to have the family you desire, and I hope you get a chance to take it slow even though it's going to move so fast. Peanut butter sandwiches are for kids anyway. ;)
To Tank specifically: I remember you being the strongest guy around and talking about football when I was on my high school team. I remember your real name. Good to see that you're helping Rich run the boards. Definitely the best man for the job. Keep it sweet.
Rich, I'd like to use this post to
thank you for creating such a great site and running the boards as well as you did throughout all the time that I was here. It's a long post, but this place and everyone in it were and are important to me, so I think it's necessary. It must have been a unique experience to watch SC become what it did. You're definitely one of my favorite start-up CEOs. I remember you as being a bit older than most of us, so I hope you're enjoying the finer things that come with age (wealth, wisdom, wife and kids) or living in the fast lane if that's your thing. ;) Always thought you were a stand-up guy.
I also wanted to say that I think there's something special about Internet communities like this one that often goes unmentioned, but not unnoticed, in how they give life to people who may have otherwise felt like statues in the real world, frozen solid by fear, a lack of confidence or common ground with other people. I wonder how many people have found the courage to go out and do the things they really want to in life because of some support and encouragement from a few faceless friends from across the world. I love it. There was definitely a lot more than gaming that went on here.
Favourite year: 2007-2008. Became Super Mod and was confident enough to do everything I had wanted to do here when I first joined the forum. The boards were active and full of people my age who grew up on the site and all knew each other. Lots of fun roleplays and great stories on the FF&RP board. Teams and Clans (though I never joined any of them). All kinds of jokes. Lots of great conversation. The great stuff that happened in my real life during the same time period. Becky (Ozzo) being one of the only women on the site and getting ruthlessly hit on by lots of guys despite being a really sweet girl. So many more other things I may be lucky enough to remember bits and pieces of throughout my life.
I wish you all long life and happiness. Cheers.
Jeremy (Sodacan)
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